For great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods. (Psalm 96:4) 

God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways;he does great things beyond our understanding. (Job 37:5)

Sovereign LORD, you have begun to show to your servant your greatness and your strong hand. For what god is there in heaven or on earth who can do the deeds and mighty works you do? (Deuteronomy 3:24)

For the LORD your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great God, mighty and awesome, who shows no partiality and accepts no bribes.(Deuteronomy 10:17)

Even When It Hurts (Praise Song) - Hillsong

Take this fainted heart
Take these tainted hands
Wash me in your love
Come like grace again

 

Even when my strength is lost
I'll praise you
Even when I have no song
I'll praise you
Even when it's hard to find the words
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

 

Take this mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again

 

Even when the fight seems lost
I'll praise you
Even when it hurts like hell
I'll praise you
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

 

And my heart burns only for you
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the morning has come

 

Lord my heart burns only for you
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the miracle comes

 

I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

 

Even when the morning comes
I'll praise you
Even when the fight is won
I'll praise you
Even when my time on earth is done
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise

August 26, 2015

I remember what it felt like laughing (FOR REAL) again, after 9 months of stoic deadness. 

I remember shedding a tear too, even if I still couldn't even cry. 

I remember smiling in my heart, and not with a mask, finally.

And that feeling and surreal experience of my 2nd Deliverance, last April of this year...

As well as the whole tumultuous and God-ordained experience at MMRC in Batangas, with CCF Makati, and the #TL4PursuingPassion Retreat.


Words could never be enough to describe what this 20-month journey and more (since 2012 especially) has brought me into.

Darkness? Hopelessness; abandonment from those you've loved the most; losing yourself yet still walking in this world.


And that's aside from loathing everything you'd become from a life you had grown up around: The people, places, events, memories, hard work, sweat, and yes, blood, in working with and for a community you were born into.


With everything from that, and around 95% of its entirety, and the first 18 years of my life, being thrown away to be forgotten; down the drain like nothing but loathed sedimentary and sewage waste.


I hated who I was and could not reconcile the trouble and lostness the whole turn of events had brought me and my family into.


It wasn't about unforgiveness anymore, because my sister and I had learned to do it, last 2012.


It wasn't about disappointments, which many people so thought it was.


It wasn't about the 2nd guy friend I only ever liked, either (eugh wat) ((:
Whom, obviously, a close girl friend of mine liked as well.


I just step away from people, and things, and allow them to move along, and make myself let go of what won't hold me in return; just move forward, plainly spoken.


But it was something else, something real that had brought me into all of this...

You steady my heart.

Everything I need is in You.

I WILL RESIST

bacon temptation....................................................................................

For Narnia, and for Aslan.

Well then,

Be prepared.

More tired-ness = More Wushu MMA training, pls

More work = More Jesus, allday errday

,-,

Kitty :3

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rizal_Park 

:D :)

Photo from:
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/0/06/Kitten_in_Rizal_Park%2C_Manila.jpg/800px-Kitten_in_Rizal_Park%2C_Manila.jpg

And in Your light, I found GRACE.

 

Photo credits:

https://mudpreacher.files.wordpress.com/2012/04/standing-at-the-cross.jpg

Give Up na ako.

I remember writing back then how there's no such thing as a family anymore; a church; purity of friendships; humanity...

And I would like to reitrate. With boldness.

That it still stands true today.

Socializing be like...

I have a darn feeling River is that brown little bby kitten, and Joyce is the mommah cat.

I don't think I'm a cat.


Meanwhile, check out this video of a dog:

https://www.facebook.com/StudentEdgeAU/videos/816000048439461/?__mref=message_bubble

you as a dog

:))))

 

Ian says I am that. :bd

But, is there hope?

I feel horrible.

And this is that post that culminates the overbearing, and multiple effects, that "bottling" everything in has taken me to.

Despair, and so much of it.

I am YOURS.

And YOU are Mine.

<3 :<

This sucks.

A friend told me, mag thug life nalang daw ako.

*pondering*

I want to feel and be seen as human too, for once.

The weather today wanted to match my state.

And in another moment of being by myself to cry alone, again, my playlist was on "Still".

So, yes...

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with You above the storm

Father, You are King over the flood

I will

Be still

Know You

Are God

Where Is Love? Why Did She Go?

Why did we have to find each other, just to be as if we've never met, and never will?

Bcs the world is EVIL.

And people are conceived in sin (EVIL).

Psalm 51:5 (NIV)
Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.


So I learned to loathe people, and hate my brothers and sisters; wilfully rebel against authority and the Supremacy of the GOD.

YHWH. Chose to love us with a love so deep;

And tragic,

And relentless,

In the person and saving POWER of Jesus Christ.


Who rose from the dead, and we too, when we accept the HOPE to which He so GRACIOUSLY calls us to come.

He is waiting.

Love is waiting.


Our GOD is a GOD of LOVE.

And Wrath,
And Peace,
And Reconciliation,

And RIGHTEOUSNESS.

He is HERE, WITH US, NOW and ALWAYS.
What then, are we waiting on the world for?

Wait, on Him. Our Rock, our PRIZE, our Redeemer, our Friend,

Our HOPE.

Hillsong Live - His Glory Appears

This WORLD is TEMPORARY, other words: TAKE HEART!

These horrible MOMENTS... :(((( Are for golden-future-moment-by-moment MOMENTS. :((((

He Has OVERCOME The WORLD.

"Chains be Broken. Lives be Healed. Eyes be Opened... Christ is REVEALED."

Remember: We are but Dust & Ashes

 Romans 5 (NASB)

 9 Much more then, having now been justified [e]by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved [f]by His life. 11 And not only this, [g]but we also exult in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation.


Ephesians 2 (NIVUK)
As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient.3 All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath.


Psalm 33:6 (NLT)

The LORD merely spoke, and the heavens were created. He breathed the word, and all the stars were born.

LORD, have Your way in me...

God loves us, yes, more than we can imagine.

But He is still Who He Is.

He Is.

Wrath. Justice. Peace. Comfort. Patience. Goodness.

Love.

很累啊！

我真的不行。现在我必须写我的作业呢。

“Leaders, keep the faces, the souls, and the eternities of your followers before you as you face temptation.”

When calling leaders, consider carefully if this man’s teaching and life declare and demonstrate the power, beauty, and purity of God — not perfectly, but tangibly and consistently.

“for those who guide this people have been leading them astray, and those who are guided by them are swallowed up” (Isaiah 9:16). When Israel wandered, they were being led by the decisions and declarations of leaders, men who sacrificed the good of the people for their own personal benefit (Isaiah 10:2). They were more concerned about their reputation, their success, and their profit than they were for the safety, faith, and holiness of the men and women God had put under their care. And so the flock was “swallowed up,” swept up into the resistance and rebellion, into the pain and destruction of God’s hatred against sin.

The influence of these leaders was so corrupt, so pervasive, that God removed his mercy and compassion even from the most fragile and vulnerable. God abandoned even the wives without husbands and the children without fathers.

That should take our breath away. God had said, “You shall not mistreat any widow or fatherless child” (Exodus 22:22). David had cried to God, “To you the helpless commits himself; you have been the helper of the fatherless” (Psalm 10:14). He is the “father of the fatherless and protector of widows” (Psalm 68:5). Yet Isaiah writes that this God, in the wake of corrupt leadership, “has no compassion on their fatherless and widows” (Isaiah 9:17). That is the consequence of sin in a community, especially when a leader falls, dragging his trusting followers down with him.

You cannot quarantine yourself in your iniquity while you’re pouring yourself into others through sermons or counsel or influence. It’s like trying to filter the coffee back out of the water after it’s been brewed.

“Keep a close watch on yourself and on the teaching. Persist in this, for by so doing you will save both yourself and your hearers” (1 Timothy 4:16). 

And finally, a word to followers: Treasure faithfulness, holiness, and purity in leadership. Pray for your pastor’s purity. Commend a leader’s character when you see it. Don’t take it for granted. Cultivate it among aspiring leaders — future pastors, elders, fathers, and mothers. Celebrate every kind of grace God gives — the grace that saves wretched, helpless sinners and the grace that slowly but surely makes them pure and whole again.

The qualifications for church leadership (1 Timothy 3:1–7; Titus 1:5–9) are not a scorecard for comparing pastors — not a way for filling out the back of a spiritual baseball card. The qualifications are the character-focused fences built by God to protect his precious sons and daughters. Qualifications do not nullify the gospel of grace. They commend grace wherever it grows, and they guard grace at work throughout the church.

The collapse of a leader’s ministry does not signal the collapse of Christ’s church. No, not even hell can prevail against her (Matthew 16:18). Heaven is not thrown into crisis with a scandal, however shocking or hard the fall. It is a sad and sober moment, though, for us to assess ourselves — our resolute dependence on God for the grace to live worthy of God (Philippians 2:12–13) — and to pray for the protection of his children in churches everywhere.

taken from http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/when-leaders-fall-all-are-punished

Kibroth-hattaavah

"Therefore the name of that place was called Kibroth-hattaavah, because there they buried the people who had the craving." Numbers 11:34 (ESV)

Punishment for uncontented heart

(Thank you for this, Coach Len! c: It's Prayer & Fasting week, guys! :D hehe)

These beauties~ :3

One Way

Where do you expect to find an answer, in this world? From his head?

Why do you want to know what he has to say or think about it? He only seems as if he's all that.

It took you a long time, a long while, a far journey, to get to this point in the game. And yet, it's still not fit or right for you and him.

Most especially for you.

今天我觉得我真不好。因为我要哭了！您可以帮我吗？住耶稣。。。:( 我知道了！您可以帮我啊！就帮我到了我现感谢您。多谢！:((

Everlasting

Your pain is not forever.

Only Jesus Christ and the Father's Love is.

:)

;)

You can do it, through grace, by faith, in Christ.

Forever and ever, amen!

I Feel...

1. Pain
1. Primarily Physical
2. Recently Emotional
3. Spiritual was a long time ago; long story
   
2. Weak
1. Physically
2. Emotionally
   
3. Tired
1. Physically
2. Emotionally
3. Mentally
   
4. Emotional
   (Need I expound on that...?)
   
5. Joyful
1. Emotionally
2. Mentally
3. Spiritually
   
6. Satisfied
   In JESUS CHRIST alone
   
7. Strong
   In JESUS CHRIST alone

Hello, Good, Friend.

Wake me, up, when September ends.

.

.

.

.

.

.

(Y)

And by Grace, my fears, relieved. :) @-) .-. @-@v

It feels so awkward, God, why CAN'T I take it? . . .

DAMN, SON. DO IT, NOW.

(Y) (Y) (Y)

My Comforter

Jesus, You are the strength when I am weak. You make me lie down, in an enveloping softness, in the center of a Comforter; effective as much as the very object of a comforter.

Your arms are wide and strong; soft and peaceful; overwhelmingly comfortable and easing to my being as a whole.

This will be the deathx1029348654765823845u84 of me:

I am lost.

Been so lost.

And, here, I do not know how

To

Act

The way

I should

And

To

Do as you would.

Who can say where she may hide? Where is Love?

Something tangible.

Audible.

Anything,

Reachable.

Probability of making me

Desperate,

101%.

Getting what I deserve?

Or famously,

What

I

Think

I

Deserve.


I Deserve Ice Cream.

Philippians 4 New International Version (NIV)

⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. ⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

TODAY :D

Hosanna in the Highest, if You would be so gracious...

To please grant me the peace, the grace, the wisdom, the faith, the hope, and Your Kingdom...

yeah

um

well first time in four months ive had a week of rest

i mean

whats that about.

You love him, and you loved him.

What's it gonna be? Well, try and remember that you are the lady here, so no pressure though. It takes two; time.

Adele said she's Tired, now so do I.

What part of, "I am tired" do you not understand?

I can only

only

only

only

take

in

so

much

only

What kind of lovely Faith? :)

I love him, and everyday I'm learning. It doesn't have to be as if we could never be. Hah. Maybe, just maybe, this is faith.

Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?????

GUNDAM. AH.

-incomplete-

-no photo credits yet-

Trese: BATMANILA art by Kajo Baldisimo

Trese: BATMANILA art by Kajo Baldisimo: The Batman vs The Mananaggal The Bat-Trike A Bat at Luneta Park The Bat and The Tikbalang BatJeepney Meanwhile......

huhuuhuhuhiihihihihi :3



Photo:
https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwrEr_f92WfgXFwTxfC8J_Af64MP8Ce-_QmBI9efcuZWOGtcqXTYb4y_RCEylcRhEXdrBDrw4XZpR_a200wDFQmVxNP2Gvo_MG2Og2R3SuiTl6hgn5nmJxYhH4T3HNrL50aE83B2xHHBR7/s1600/KAJO+batman+in+manila+10.jpg

Do a Crazy Dance

Why not, take a crazy chance? :)

http://biblehub.com/proverbs/3-8.htm

http://www.newtestamentprayer.org/articles/healvers.htm

B.B. KING - THE BEST OF B.B. KING (FULL ALBUM)

There is a time for everything, a season, and a purpose; for what, death you say?

I hear it and speak it,

Think twice to believe it;

Hear more, I hear, to know

The filters and shifts

Sifts

You must go through.


Be like water,

Think on the Rock.

And be one with the Wind.

Let the games begin; briefing has finished.

There is no such thing as a family anymore since sin, there is no such thing as the church we desired ever since the Cross.

There is only the Rock, who is the Christ.

"Be obsessed with the solution."

Interesting,

I am Odd

2007; 2009; 2011; 2013; 2015 ~some years it all makes sense to me

 13 I think it right, as long as I am in this vbody,8 wto stir you up by way of reminder, 

15 And I will make every effort so that after my departure you may be able at any time to recall these things.

17 For when he received honor and glory from God the Father, and the voice was borne to him by the Majestic Glory, e“This is my beloved Son,9 with whom I am well pleased,” 

 19 And gwe have the prophetic word more fully confirmed, to which you will do well to pay attentionhas to a lamp shining in a dark place, until ithe day jdawns and the morning star rises in your hearts,

21 Forkno prophecy was ever produced by the will of man, but men spoke from God las they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.

Easy

Breezy

Lemon

Squeezy

~

OPEN DOOR.

OM.DOOR.

I NEED TO stay out of my mind.

Jesus, of Peace

Prayer to my Prince
My Lord,

I desperately need you to heal my heart from all the lies that have been spoken to me. Teach me day by day as I sit with you, reading in Your Word what my true identity is. I am ready to trade all the lies for your truth. I am ready to allow you to renew my mind and refresh my spirit once again. Thank you for never giving up on me even when I give up on myself.

Love,
Your Princess who loves your truth

He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds. - Psalm 147:3 (NIV)

A Concealing Design

taken from article, www.desiringgod.org>>>
There is a tremendous glory that God displays when, without tipping his hand to us in advance, we suddenly recognize that he was working his will all along when we couldn’t see it. And he is also merciful to withhold information from us that he knows we aren’t ready to know, even if we think we really want to.

http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/why-god-s-will-isn-t-always-clear

oh, neil~

WHY ARE YOU WORKING OUT HAHAHAHAHHAA DROP THE GASUL HAHA

D:

LIGO LANG AKO HAHA WAIT DONT TIRE YOURSELF PLEASE

i will have like 7 docs all in all?

or 8

medical palang yan

Therese...

told me around the middle of April, during the height of my distress-calling, to read the whole book of Ephesians, NOW.

Which I couldn't exactly do no matter how much I tried; everything else was just in turmoil and in a state of emergency; helpless; with the LORD.

So, I am beginning that journey the slow, and peaceful, and pacing way~

I'm not okay.

I wake up tired.

I fall apart at 9 am in the morning.

I am being fought or spited in my home.

People care but do not understand.

No one can keep up with me.

Jesus is HERE.

2 Seconds of Betrayal

NatGeo Earth Day Run 2015

10k
Rank Bib # Name Gun Time Chip Time @4.98k Gender Age Group

1387 13894 Sukey MONTANA 01:26:29 01:23:27 00:38:56 F B:20-29
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1388 10934 Christian Jules MANUEL 01:26:29 01:25:55 00:40:34 M B:20-29
1389 10444 Apollo BAYLON 01:26:29 01:23:05 00:37:32 M C:30-39
1390 14518 Matthew SANTOS 01:26:30 01:22:17 00:40:04 M C:30-39
1391 10239 Joselito BARRERA 01:26:30 00:43:59 M D:40-49
~
1392 13895 Leah TATMAN 01:26:31 01:23:29 00:38:59 F B:20-29

21k
Rank Bib # Name Gun Time Chip Time @5.93k @12.61k Gender Age Group

2071 27059 Edric UY 02:56:19 02:56:19 00:51:25 01:40:03 M B:20-29




http://runrio.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/04/Natgeo-Earth-Day-Run-2015-Official-Results-10k.pdf
http://runrio.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/04/NatGeo-Earth-Day-Run-2015-Official-Results-21k.pdf

Photo:
http://www.pinoyfitness.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/04/natgeo-run-medal-2015-results-540x540.jpg from http://www.pinoyfitness.com/2015/04/natgeo-earth-day-run-2015-results-discussion-and-photos/

This is my sister's (Sashi aka Starguinne) song for me ever since last year. :)))
I now see Never-land along with the music video. :)) HUHA

She doesn't think anyone can keep up with me. :))

Walter Cui Canape

ano nangyari sainyo? hahahhahaha

 

childhood friend

turned negative

turned zero

 

Jeanne Danielle Go

Sareh

 

pursued me

then

dropped me like nothing

then is here again

JOKETIME?