“…For the essence of prophecy is to give a clear witness for Jesus.” - Revelation 19:10
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Thursday, 21 December 2023
I have lost the will today to haste. They’re lucky I did.
I usually move in speed because of the manner of articulation in the systems that go on and forth.
The speed of light in earth bend is unnoticeable and when it is mostly has repulsion in nature.
Decisions acted on, the day itself especially, is a rare doing for myself. Today I thought I would oppose it.
They are so lucky. Because even xxx has let go of x grip on me.
Tuesday, 19 December 2023
Decompression Chambre.
19th December 2023 - maximum capacity.
Jesus, I yield. Always now and forever. Have mercy, Elohim.
Sunday, 16 July 2023
La vida es corta
I miss that sweet spot that I had. After leaving the cult and before seeing the real world as it is.
It was simple. I sought the Landlord. (Pilgrim's Regress)
I had joy Non unattainable. I could love, who I am, and be wanted too.
Tuesday, 13 December 2022
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Saturday, 2 September 2017
Thursday, 29 December 2016
Monday, 5 December 2016
2:26 am March 1, 2015
"Dear Jesus,
I don't know what to do... I mean I have been at this for so long. There would be risen many truths that bring out the realities; many hurts that would chisel and chisel away. First of all, there is precaution. And when that doesn't work, there is caution... For so many other cases out there, there is the danger; the danger that would probably cause death or serious injuries.
--currently, I don't know if it's the wine or the hangover from some three episodes of Criminal Minds S10. But I believe it comes from everything... The past two years, I claimed (as told to my friend just how many minutes ago) to be, by far the best and the very worst of times.
Who does this ----- who blatantly embraces in such this way ----- by far, none. How do you cry? How does the wailing finally come? For how rare is it to happen; how does it come in season? Every seven years, I had observed it to be. Today, I had put feet & eyes to forgiving; yesterday, I laughed almost my heart out; and the other day, I had simply shed a tear or a little more.
What is this darkness, you ask? The darkness that we see; the darkness that befalls us; the darkness so tainted and stained; the blood that spilled on to hundreds and thousands of years, all clearly from a darkness within...
And when you think it could not possibly get ever worse, it does: Darkness grows darker, darkness will linger, darkness knows no bounds but the ones it is given; darkness sifts, darkness hides; darkness, it knows not to rest.
The darkness gets darker and darker and darker, whether your own of from places people can't call "home" anymore. As if it could end there with a shot, with a rope, with a push, with a try, a thousand mg more, or a track and its roar.
It likes to sit there and stay, as it plans, for all the ages. When it will not linger, it will leave; leave to come again, yes, with seven more leagues ahoy. It will pierce, it will marinate; it will live to deplete, to destroy, and to just "chill".
What can I say
(insert pic 1)
Death said, there's no where else to go...
You do not know and you do not have any idea.
Life's like that?
You always thought it was beautiful that way: LEAVE THEM LEAVE THEM TO BE ! ! ! ! ! ! TO BE WHAT ! ! ? ? ! ! !
When it's been done OVER & OVER & OVER & OVER again. This time I just saw it full blown, with my very own eyes. You think you know? Think again.
Now, I know, I understand. Crazy, the brain, the soul, the people, the circumstances & the underworld. Understand. And when all else is done, they will stand for me. Because death has called me.....
It's more than just about the enemy & "IT'S A PROBLEM OF THE HEART!"
No, it is more
It is more than that. There is no more, such a thing as the, heart. There is no more breath; no more real; no more genuine but fake: there has not been any existence of love at all.
And that goes for all.
Because there is no more such thing,
There is no more living.
It is called: DESTRUCTION.
We are no such thing. Every little thing hangs on before or after HIM.
Death calls to HIM, calls to me.
Death can win in all he claims to be.
So then she sees and breeds, the win,
The spoils, in all he claims from me.
Because you said it's easy.
Nobody asked for it.
But HE made it to be.
WHY? Is what we will never know or see
Because that is the point of Creator and creation.
There is a hierarchy.
An absolute unreachable possibility.
HE lives HE moves but why does HE?
HE lives HE loves under whose liberty?
It won't, it can't, it wasn't made to be
To make, full sense?
That's why HE's over me.
The brain, the soul, lost in captivity.
The eyes, the world, has died, with all to see
Your world? Which world?
he brought the end of me
she saw all there was to be
HE did HE knew HE saw profanity.
What else, is there? But a new great King to be...
You lost your soul along with sanity.
What beauty?
What life?
And -reation- Creation we're meant to be?
You lost you lose gone down like history.
Become vile as you are; be dead then, as death just so wishes to be.
Dead, no breath, dead, like coal; best to burn, easy to crush, you see...
And then when burned, when crushed, when chopped to dust you'll be;
You'll know, you'll see, just what you are, compared, compared to eternity.
You're dust you'll blow
with the wind or with the seas
One click?
As you were dead, you, slowly and surely, die even more~
Illusion-ed. Delusional. You lose; no choice
because death is the only reality.
Disenchanted. Disabused.
A magnifying delusional disorder.
You have nofucking idea."
(insert pic 2)
"Dear Jesus,
I don't know what to do... I mean I have been at this for so long. There would be risen many truths that bring out the realities; many hurts that would chisel and chisel away. First of all, there is precaution. And when that doesn't work, there is caution... For so many other cases out there, there is the danger; the danger that would probably cause death or serious injuries.
--currently, I don't know if it's the wine or the hangover from some three episodes of Criminal Minds S10. But I believe it comes from everything... The past two years, I claimed (as told to my friend just how many minutes ago) to be, by far the best and the very worst of times.
Who does this ----- who blatantly embraces in such this way ----- by far, none. How do you cry? How does the wailing finally come? For how rare is it to happen; how does it come in season? Every seven years, I had observed it to be. Today, I had put feet & eyes to forgiving; yesterday, I laughed almost my heart out; and the other day, I had simply shed a tear or a little more.
What is this darkness, you ask? The darkness that we see; the darkness that befalls us; the darkness so tainted and stained; the blood that spilled on to hundreds and thousands of years, all clearly from a darkness within...
And when you think it could not possibly get ever worse, it does: Darkness grows darker, darkness will linger, darkness knows no bounds but the ones it is given; darkness sifts, darkness hides; darkness, it knows not to rest.
The darkness gets darker and darker and darker, whether your own of from places people can't call "home" anymore. As if it could end there with a shot, with a rope, with a push, with a try, a thousand mg more, or a track and its roar.
It likes to sit there and stay, as it plans, for all the ages. When it will not linger, it will leave; leave to come again, yes, with seven more leagues ahoy. It will pierce, it will marinate; it will live to deplete, to destroy, and to just "chill".
What can I say
(insert pic 1)
Death said, there's no where else to go...
You do not know and you do not have any idea.
Life's like that?
You always thought it was beautiful that way: LEAVE THEM LEAVE THEM TO BE ! ! ! ! ! ! TO BE WHAT ! ! ? ? ! ! !
When it's been done OVER & OVER & OVER & OVER again. This time I just saw it full blown, with my very own eyes. You think you know? Think again.
Now, I know, I understand. Crazy, the brain, the soul, the people, the circumstances & the underworld. Understand. And when all else is done, they will stand for me. Because death has called me.....
It's more than just about the enemy & "IT'S A PROBLEM OF THE HEART!"
No, it is more
It is more than that. There is no more, such a thing as the, heart. There is no more breath; no more real; no more genuine but fake: there has not been any existence of love at all.
And that goes for all.
Because there is no more such thing,
There is no more living.
It is called: DESTRUCTION.
We are no such thing. Every little thing hangs on before or after HIM.
Death calls to HIM, calls to me.
Death can win in all he claims to be.
So then she sees and breeds, the win,
The spoils, in all he claims from me.
Because you said it's easy.
Nobody asked for it.
But HE made it to be.
WHY? Is what we will never know or see
Because that is the point of Creator and creation.
There is a hierarchy.
An absolute unreachable possibility.
HE lives HE moves but why does HE?
HE lives HE loves under whose liberty?
It won't, it can't, it wasn't made to be
To make, full sense?
That's why HE's over me.
The brain, the soul, lost in captivity.
The eyes, the world, has died, with all to see
Your world? Which world?
he brought the end of me
she saw all there was to be
HE did HE knew HE saw profanity.
What else, is there? But a new great King to be...
You lost your soul along with sanity.
What beauty?
What life?
And -reation- Creation we're meant to be?
You lost you lose gone down like history.
Become vile as you are; be dead then, as death just so wishes to be.
Dead, no breath, dead, like coal; best to burn, easy to crush, you see...
And then when burned, when crushed, when chopped to dust you'll be;
You'll know, you'll see, just what you are, compared, compared to eternity.
You're dust you'll blow
with the wind or with the seas
One click?
As you were dead, you, slowly and surely, die even more~
Illusion-ed. Delusional. You lose; no choice
because death is the only reality.
Disenchanted. Disabused.
A magnifying delusional disorder.
You have no
(insert pic 2)
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I remember what it felt like laughing (FOR REAL) again, after 9 months of stoic deadness.
I remember shedding a tear too, even if I still couldn't cry.
I remember smiling in my heart, and not with a mask, finally.
And that feeling and surreal experience of Deliverance, last April of 2015...
As well as the whole tumultuous and God-ordained experience at the #TL4PursuingPassion Retreat.
Words could never be enough to describe what that 20-month journey and more (since 2012 especially) has brought me into.
Darkness? Hopelessness; abandonment from those you've loved the most; losing yourself yet still walking in this world.
And that's aside from loathing everything you'd become from a life you had grown up around: The people, places, events, memories, hard work, sweat, and yes, blood, in working with and for a community you were born into.
With everything from that, and around 95% of its entirety, and the first 18 years of my life, being thrown away to be forgotten; down the drain like nothing but loathed sedimentary and sewage waste.
I hated who I was and could not reconcile the trouble and lostness the whole turn of events had brought me and my family into.
It wasn't about unforgiveness anymore, because my sister and I had learned to do it, last 2012.
It wasn't about disappointments, which many people so thought it was.
It wasn't about the 2nd guy friend I only ever liked, either (eugh wat) (
(:Whom, obviously, a close girl friend of mine liked as well.
I just step away from people, and things, and allow them to move along, and make myself let go of what won't hold me in return; just move forward, plainly spoken.
But it was something else, something real that had brought me into all of this...
God and Satan.
God in all His sovereignty, no matter how daunted and tainted it all looked to be, is who He is.
YHWH. El Shaddai. Elohim. Adonai. El Roi. Shalom. Abba. El Elyon. Jehovah Ezer. Jehovah Jireh. Jehovah Rapha. Jehovah Roi. Jehovah Sabaoth. Jehovah Nissi. Jehovah Mekeddeshem. Jehovah Nissi. Jehovah Shalom. Jehovah-Shammah. Jehovah-Rophi. Jehovah Tsedeq. Our GOD; King; LORD; Stronghold. The Rock of Ages. Jesus Christ; Emancipator, Illuminator, Comforter, Rewarder, Preserver. Saviour. Redeemer. Friend. Prince of Peace. The Lamb of God.
His names are just too beautiful and magnificent to even bear or think of.
Its meanings... Just ring so true to us who are in His family, adopted and saved, through the BLOOD and Justification of Jesus Christ + nothing.
Its meanings... Just ring so true to us who are in His family, adopted and saved, through the BLOOD and Justification of Jesus Christ + nothing.
To know and bask more in the presence of this Holy LORD, wouldn't that be the fulfillment of who we were created to be?
To love Him who loved us first.
That's the true love, and the real and most solid love story, we all seem to be looking or grasping for.
Whether it be from family, a friend, loved one, a husband, a wife, a son, daughter, a best friend, and so on. Even a pet. @--)
There is and always will be that God-shaped vacuum in whatever state our heart may be in. And what could fill it, none other, than our GOD. He who breathes out stars!
(Psalm 33:6 The heavens were made by the word of the LORD and all the stars by the breath of his mouth.)
Knows them by name, put them into place, calls them.
Stars. He would be that so magnificent, and glorious, and also be so "insignificant" as with an ant.
The worker He so praises in His Word (whoa), found in the book of Proverbs, imagine that.
An ant, without a spirit, like humans whom God had created in His Image... Would be called by our King to be faithful. Wow, such shame for us. And our heads, and our hearts, would still be too proud and mighty, and difficult to reach? Although not impossible...
Clearly, He is the Master Creator.
There is none like Him.
And with all that, why does a perfect God seem to allow His creation to go through such darkness, and trouble, and turmoil, amidst the greatness and goodness He has created in the universe, for this world we live in?
Is He not loving enough?
Sadly, His Creation, Man, had turned from this perfect Creator. Because we were given a choice, we had chosen to follow the curiosities and fleeting things this world we live in had to offer.
This world? I thought was created perfectly as well...in perfect symphony and harmony with each and all of God's creation.
Yes, but also, when sin and Satan was given the freedom as well, which he so explicitly used, in this world, is when and why death began to exist.
The world started to decay, and so did we.
Sin, by Man's choice, had infiltrated and diminished every inch and part of our being.
Our spirits were dead.
Our souls were polluted.
Our bodies fell ill.
And in all God's sovereignty and supremacy, He still had a plan.
He prevented Man from eating of the tree of life, lest he be in that sinful state, for eternity; we were banished not just from the Garden of Eden. But from the presence of our Holy God...
Although, not forever.
The Bible, the spoken Word of God, tells us the greatest story in all of existence... And it centers around the story of a Saviour.
A Man. Also, a God.
Jesus Christ, the Messiah, He who would take our place of death, bear ALL of our iniquities, ONCE and FOR ALL.
When He came, Light burst through the Darkness. As if this world had never become bad in the first place.
He became the perfect sacrifice, the fulfillment of the Law, the Love of the Father, the perfect and glorious and revealed Lamb of God.
Satan had lost forever, to be banished in the Lake of Fire.
And he wants to bring any, if not all, of the spirits left or to come in the remaining time for this world. He would stop at nothing.
We cannot underestimate what he does and go unprepared or lax into the world (too late though we're already in it).
But we could always know, and trust, and rely, on the beautiful and wonderful and majestic and magnificent wonder, love, and POWER, of the CROSS OF JESUS CHRIST.
The enemy has been defeated, death has no sting, it couldn't hold anyone IN CHRIST down, anymore.
And why I began writing this was, just at first, a way for me to thank my family, my local home-church, and my best friends, and other friends for being there.
Even as imperfect as we are, still given grace by our God through our Saviour, He had gifted me with you all to aid and pray and journey with me, through all of this.
God was all that I needed. But He provided my angels, which came in the form of you guys, why not!
And the greatest thing about this, which a discipler reminded me of once, is that it's not about us.
It's not about me, no. Not about the people who caused many storms, or stumbled me, or hurt me. It's not also about the good this world had to offer, and give me sanity: True Friends, Family who didn't abandon, a real Church Community which emanated Christ, Bible Study Fellowship, my love of CARS, Praise and Worship, Snoopy, pizza, and buko juice!!! And everything alternative; anything old-school and full of adventure; finding awesome things often bypassed by people; Maynila & Binondo!! the Philippines and its outback beauty! The wonders of God's gifts and creation. Friends from all over the world, being home-schooled, nomadic, and so on and so forth.
Those were more than blessings, but the real and greatest thing about it, is that it tells of how GREAT OUR GOD IS.
Who else, but He, is to be praised and glorified forevermore?
And for those I met along the way, and some who told me, never saw a hint of the grave state my heart had been (and also chosen) to be in, thanks for at least caring even if you could not understand! #ENFP Problems hahaha
For those I've spoken to, going through similar or other struggles with the church; family; ourselves; and people who can't understand (The hardest is when we ourselves don't understand): Christ is here for us! And so are we, the Church, His Bride, so don't you worry and lose hope.
I know I did for some time, a long time even, but God sustained me. Because it would glorify Him.
I've seen campus counselors, Biblical counselors, healing counselors, doctors for my physiological problems, and psychiatrists and psychologists too. If we have a problem, it is very much holistic. Spirit. Mind. Body.
So (for me) I had to shut the stupid side of being ENFP, ((independent to a fault)) and when I reached my worst and final point of exhaustion, I had turned for help. From GOD and professional help; Biblically for my spirit and mind, Physiologically for my mind and my body. And lastly, I don't really emotion, so God gave me loving people, like my best friends, anyway.
There had come many and unexpected love from the people God had slowly placed and taken away from my life.
The Church has prayed for me, stayed with me, listened to me, and helped me. My pastor saying that he believes me and that there is healing and there is hope. Friends who did not say I was being a drama queen, in all of it. Those who've seen too many of my ups and downs. But their relentless love for Jesus and the Word of God was not in vain, as it served as my sustenance, indeed. He is the true Bread of Life and Living Water, Amen!
I love the way things have turned out to be because He is.
God is who He is. A God of wrath, and a God of love, and reconciliation, and peace.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
I'm glad I get to spend eternity with a family like God's.
And if all of these things didn't happen, then everyone I thank God for wouldn't exist in my life to done be with what I am talking about. None of them would've existed. And they would have had more peaceful lives, not knowing the more than ADD (acc. to a friend) person ((: that I am.
(: that I am.
I praise God for my household. 
:v ,-, no matter how dysfunctional
:v ,-, no matter how dysfunctional
I know our family also thanks the church community we have in CCF, for countless times they have showed Christ's love, grace, and forgiveness towards us and the rest of the hurting church, no matter how imperfect any and all other churches may be, we serve a God of grace and love. And besides, the church is the body of Christ, not, exclusively, one group of believers or community only.
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I've thanked many others personally, throughout last year.
I'd just like to say, that I believe you too, if you are struggling and can't even have enough strength to grasp for air, both literally and figuratively, I believe you. I believe that clinical depression is real, suicidal tendencies are not a joke, emotional or even mental illness /problems have solutions... And that, friends, SPIRITUAL BATTLE is real. And that the Christian life is not merely salvation or being justified through Christ's blood.
But it is also the sanctification of our beings, holistically, for the purposes of God, through Christ, for our lives.
I believe in the POWER of the gospel, the Word of God, prayer, the Holy Spirit in us and working through us. And I would even emphasise on the Deliverance of our beings, as Christ is in us, above, through, and with us... We must rid ourselves of anything (THE SIN) that hinders or entangles us in our walk and faith with God. Because we aren't perfect and we are still in this sinful world, one that is not yet new (which God says is to come), we need to PUT OFF all of our idols: money, sex, fame, power, acceptance, comfort, greed, hatred, anger --anything and EVERYTHING that is not from God and that takes the place of Jesus Christ in our hearts.
And we need to put on Christ, allow Him to rule in our entire beings, Body, Mind, and Spirit. And like the Israelites, when we are delivered, we mustn't grumble or disobey, we might get lost, but for us, we CAN always look to Christ and the Cross at Calvary. And the promises of our God. The Truth is the Truth.
Our perception is not reality. The only Way is the only Way. And the Life Jesus says that is the True Life, is the True Life. We find our lives, when we lay it down; let it go, give up all control of what our flesh wants and desires.
It cost Jesus EVERYTHING that we may Truly Live, and it costs us nothing to have True Life. All it takes is a decision, like how I had decided to accept the gift of life from Christ and justification before God, through His blood, for myself.
The way I decided to look to man, instead of the Bible and Jesus Christ.
The way I decided to blame others when all I could blame, really, was my heart and my fleshly desires and idols that I'd clung on to.
The way I decided to listen and give in to the wiles and LIES of the enemy.
The way I decided to not believe in God, altogether.
The way I decided to lose faith and my trust in Him, because I wasn't feeling all right anymore. (see, we can never trust our emotions. The same would go for our rollercoaster emotions in romantic love)
The way I decided to hide it, and keep it, and find other means of escape until I wanted to escape life, altogether.
The way I decided to find my own life, or my own dreams, or my own desires.
The way I decided to be numb and angry and bitter, until I could sense it myself no more.
The way I decided to say, hey, what gives... Let's just forget about everything good that may happen, maybe fight for the weak, and hate those who are strong or those who reek of Alpha mentalities in their heads and self-righteousness in their hearts... HATE, HATE, HATE. Until it turned to hatred towards my brothers or sisters in Christ, the body of Christ itself, the Church, people, and everything that made my heart churn.
See the way the enemy works? Satan wants us to be so preoccupied with ourselves and what we feel and what we want.
I decided to stay lost, to willfully close the eyes and ears of my heart, from the Spirit of God, to be subject under sin and flesh and Satan and his cohorts.
I decided.
And as nobody could see behind the smiles, or the ADHD-ness, the laughter, or just plain recluse I had emitted all along, Jesus Christ was there.
Weeping. Heartbroken because His Princess Warrior had lost her Armour, her shield, and her only offence, the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.
Weeping because she may not be condemned to hell, if she confesses her sins and as she is forgiven, but because she had lost her limbs. The enemy would bring her down on earth, if he couldn't do so in hell.
He mourned and interceded many days for me. He is the only reason why a mess-up; an ugly duckling (having similar, if not same, issues as other members of the family and God's family even) who manifests all the dirtiness and muck, of what my family had so allowed the devil to take over in our lives; a helpless being like me, be still standing up again, and again, and again, and again, (and again and again and again and again) because He loves me.
I am His own, and dearly, Beloved Treasure.
The enemy was sly in deceiving us, but we willingly accepted the deceit (the defeat, really) that started to build around our entire household. We held on to our idols, until God so GRACIOUSLY broke us, and boy, did He break and empty us. To make us realise, we needed TO GO BACK to Him, our FIRST LOVE.
We lost practically "everything" we had once known, and learned to love. The first 18 years for me, back then, and my first (emotional feel feels) "love".✌
16 years for my sister, and so much more for us both, I wouldn't even bear to begin to think about it.
9 years for my brother (thank goodness, though),
20 years for my kuya and many joys and hurts he had from childhood.
28 years of service, and his whole inheritance even, for my dad. My mom? Her sanity, I think. She was always praying and fighting because the Holy Spirit spoke strongly in her, as she had a more Biblical foundation as a child, than our dad did. I believe her prayers, along with many I know, had been answered so GLORIOUSLY and so GRACIOUSLY in His time.
If there are real problems even in the Christian community, with regard to the culting of Christianity or any little, or huge forms, of religious abuse, we still have no excuse.
Get rid of sin, our idols, everything that does not come from God and glorify Him.
Look not to man, but to God. As I would remember, our lessons on Isaiah, in Precept Bible Study, Philippines.
Consider God! Consider Him. Acknowledge Him. Listen to Him. Ask Him. Know Him. Spend your waking and resting moments, in the Spirit. Renew your mind! Digest and meditate on His Word! Because it is Truth and Life and Peace.
Do not grow cold, but even if you do, nothing is impossible with God. BELIEVE IN HIM. Believe also in the schemes, traps, and lies of Satan. But Believe in the POWER of JESUS CHRIST, and His work FINISHED FOREVER (May Forever, pls) ON THE CROSS at Calvary.
Believe that every knee will bow, and tongue confess, that Jesus is Lord. If humanity will not, the very stones on the ground will have to cry out!!
He is the Saviour of those who accept His gift of Eternal Life, gift of Grace from the Father, gift of Peace, and Reconciliation with the Holy God.
The Lord is My Shepherd, I lack nothing.
Cling fast to Him, and those around Him.
Ephesians 6:10
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
So, we give back all the Glory to God, for gifting us with His love and mercy. Forever and ever, and all God's people say, AMEN!
Sunday, 2 October 2016
Speak Life With My Words
I know the world whispers in your ear that what you possess defines who you are, and that what you look like determines your worth. This is a lie, My love. The generations to come will never remember you for the things you accumulate or the efforts you placed in your appearance. In fact, the harder you strive to collect more things and to perfect your image, the more insecure you will be about who you are and why you are here. I am in you and you are in Me. I will give you all that you need. Now go and walk through your world in the confidence that I’ve uniquely equipped you with all you need to impact the lives of those around you forever!
Love,
Your King and your Confidence
For the Lord will be your confidence, and will keep your foot from being caught. - Proverbs 3:26 (NASB)
Love,
Your King and your Confidence
For the Lord will be your confidence, and will keep your foot from being caught. - Proverbs 3:26 (NASB)
Tuesday, 13 September 2016
I Will Care For You When You Are Sick
My Bride,
There will be times when you will experience sickness as you walk through this life. I want you to rest assured that I will always be with you, in sickness and in health. Let Me take you to a place where your soul can be at rest even when your body is ill. I will provide comfort and healing for my girl. Not to worry, my beloved; I was there when you took your first breath and I will be there when you take your last. I can heal you with just a touch or I can take you home. No matter what happens I will hold you till we see one another face to face.
Love,
Your Prince and Healer
The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. - Psalm 23:1-3 (NLT)
Prayer to my Prince
It is so hard on me when I am sick. Please comfort me and touch me with your healing hands. Give me physical strength when I am weak. I am weak, but you are my strength. Feed me with spiritual nourishment, that I may say "It is well with my soul."
Love,
Your Princess who trusts you
O Lord my God, I cried to you for help,
And you restored my health.
You brought me up from the grave, O Lord.
You kept me from falling into the pit of death. - Psalm 30:2-3 (NIV)
There will be times when you will experience sickness as you walk through this life. I want you to rest assured that I will always be with you, in sickness and in health. Let Me take you to a place where your soul can be at rest even when your body is ill. I will provide comfort and healing for my girl. Not to worry, my beloved; I was there when you took your first breath and I will be there when you take your last. I can heal you with just a touch or I can take you home. No matter what happens I will hold you till we see one another face to face.
Love,
Your Prince and Healer
The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength. - Psalm 23:1-3 (NLT)
Prayer to my Prince
It is so hard on me when I am sick. Please comfort me and touch me with your healing hands. Give me physical strength when I am weak. I am weak, but you are my strength. Feed me with spiritual nourishment, that I may say "It is well with my soul."
Love,
Your Princess who trusts you
O Lord my God, I cried to you for help,
And you restored my health.
You brought me up from the grave, O Lord.
You kept me from falling into the pit of death. - Psalm 30:2-3 (NIV)
"God does not think that rest is giving up. He’s sojourning with you (Leviticus 26:11–12). He’s not gossiping about you with your enemies (Psalm 138:7). Take a step away from an overwhelming context. Re-evaluate how you might engage again once you’ve had some time to refuel. Know your limits. God does (Proverbs 30:1–6)."
Monday, 12 September 2016
Saturday, 10 September 2016
Wednesday, 17 February 2016
The Sweet Designs of God - Solid Joys (John Piper)
This means that Paul was beating and imprisoning and murdering Christians as a God-chosen, soon-to-be-made-Christian missionary.
(http://solidjoys.desiringgod.org/en/devotionals/the-sweet-designs-of-god)
Read link :)
Formerly I was a blasphemer, persecutor, and insolent opponent. But I received mercy . . . for this reason, that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display his perfect patience as an example to those who were to believe in him for eternal life. (1 Timothy 1:13, 16)O, how sweet are the designs of God in the sovereign salvation of hardened sinners!
(http://solidjoys.desiringgod.org/en/devotionals/the-sweet-designs-of-god)
Read link :)
http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/love-the-life-you-never-wanted
But the LORD was with Joseph and showed him steadfast love and gave him favor in the sight of the keeper of the prison. And the keeper of the prison put Joseph in charge of all the prisoners who were in the prison. . . . And whatever he did, the LORD made it succeed. (Genesis 39:21–23)
The reality is that all of us can imagine something better for ourselves than our circumstances today. The greater reality is that, if you love and follow Jesus, God always writes a better story for you than you would write for yourself. The “better” is based on this: God himself is the best, most satisfying thing you could ever have or experience, and, therefore, fullness of life is ultimately found not in any earthly success or relationship or accomplishment, but in your proximity to God through faith.
The dark side of this good news is that you may have to walk through pain, disappointment, rejection, and suffering for seventy or eighty years. The brighter (and prevailing) side says God never makes a mistake in choosing good for you. Everything you experience — expected or unexpected, wanted or unwanted, pleasing or painful — is God’s good plan to make you his own (John 10:27–29), to give you himself forever (Psalm 16:11), and to use your life to reveal himself and his glory to the world around you (Isaiah 43:25; 1 Corinthians 10:31).
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John 10
Isaiah 43
25 “I, even I, am the one who awipes out your transgressions bfor My own sake,
1 Corinthians 10
31 Whether, then, you eat or drink or awhatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
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What is the secret of joy and contentment in the face of whatever life brings? It’s centering and anchoring our joy and contentment in Christ, rather than in life. John Piper says, “When we have little and have lost much, Christ comes and reveals himself as more valuable than what we have lost. And when we have much and are overflowing in abundance, Christ comes and he shows that he is far superior to everything we have.”
(http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/love-the-life-you-never-wanted)
The reality is that all of us can imagine something better for ourselves than our circumstances today. The greater reality is that, if you love and follow Jesus, God always writes a better story for you than you would write for yourself. The “better” is based on this: God himself is the best, most satisfying thing you could ever have or experience, and, therefore, fullness of life is ultimately found not in any earthly success or relationship or accomplishment, but in your proximity to God through faith.
The dark side of this good news is that you may have to walk through pain, disappointment, rejection, and suffering for seventy or eighty years. The brighter (and prevailing) side says God never makes a mistake in choosing good for you. Everything you experience — expected or unexpected, wanted or unwanted, pleasing or painful — is God’s good plan to make you his own (John 10:27–29), to give you himself forever (Psalm 16:11), and to use your life to reveal himself and his glory to the world around you (Isaiah 43:25; 1 Corinthians 10:31).
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John 10
28 and I give aeternal life to them, and they will never perish; and bno one will snatch them out of My hand.
29 “1My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father’s hand.
Isaiah 43
25 “I, even I, am the one who awipes out your transgressions bfor My own sake,
And I will cnot remember your sins.
1 Corinthians 10
31 Whether, then, you eat or drink or awhatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
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What is the secret of joy and contentment in the face of whatever life brings? It’s centering and anchoring our joy and contentment in Christ, rather than in life. John Piper says, “When we have little and have lost much, Christ comes and reveals himself as more valuable than what we have lost. And when we have much and are overflowing in abundance, Christ comes and he shows that he is far superior to everything we have.”
A Greater Treasure and Ambition
Is the life you’re currently living the one you always wanted?- Are you content — more than content, delighted and exhilarated — to have God at your side (Joshua 1:9)?
- Have you put some earthly standard or accomplishment ahead of knowing him and being his (2 Corinthians 6:16)?
- Are you willing to entrust your soul, your cause, and your vindication to the one who always judges justly, the one who has promised to work all things in every circumstance — including every setback, every disappointment, and even every sin against you — for you (1 Peter 2:23; Romans 8:28)?
(http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/love-the-life-you-never-wanted)
Tuesday, 26 January 2016
Triumph Through Trials
I see you when you are in the garden of grief, My princess. I hear your cry for help in the dark hours of the night. I Myself cried out in the garden the night I was betrayed. In My suffering I asked My Father for another way--a less painful way. Yet I trusted His will and purpose for My life and knew the ultimate victory was at the cross. Just as olives must be crushed to make oil, I poured out My life as a love offering for you. Don’t ever doubt that I am with you and that I long to take you to a place of comfort, peace, and victory. Even when you cannot see Me from where you are, I am working on your behalf. Give to Me the crushing weight of your circumstances, and come to Me in prayer. When it is time to leave the garden, I will walk with you across the valley and straight to the cross--where your trials will be transformed into triumph.
Love,
Your Savior and your Victor
For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when our endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. - James 1:3-4
Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. - Psalm 51:7
HisPrincess.com 26 January 2016
Love,
Your Savior and your Victor
For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when our endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. - James 1:3-4
Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. - Psalm 51:7
HisPrincess.com 26 January 2016
Monday, 25 January 2016
耶稣
Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. - Psalm 61:1-2 (NLT)
Monday, 18 January 2016
Thursday, 29 October 2015
For great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods. (Psalm 96:4)
God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways;he does great things beyond our understanding. (Job 37:5)
Sovereign LORD, you have begun to show to your servant your greatness and your strong hand. For what god is there in heaven or on earth who can do the deeds and mighty works you do? (Deuteronomy 3:24)
For the LORD your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great God, mighty and awesome, who shows no partiality and accepts no bribes.(Deuteronomy 10:17)
God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways;he does great things beyond our understanding. (Job 37:5)
Sovereign LORD, you have begun to show to your servant your greatness and your strong hand. For what god is there in heaven or on earth who can do the deeds and mighty works you do? (Deuteronomy 3:24)
For the LORD your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great God, mighty and awesome, who shows no partiality and accepts no bribes.(Deuteronomy 10:17)
Thursday, 15 October 2015
Even When It Hurts (Praise Song) - Hillsong
Take this fainted heart
Take these tainted hands
Wash me in your love
Come like grace again
Take these tainted hands
Wash me in your love
Come like grace again
Even when my strength is lost
I'll praise you
Even when I have no song
I'll praise you
Even when it's hard to find the words
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I'll praise you
Even when I have no song
I'll praise you
Even when it's hard to find the words
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
Take this mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again
Even when the fight seems lost
I'll praise you
Even when it hurts like hell
I'll praise you
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I'll praise you
Even when it hurts like hell
I'll praise you
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
And my heart burns only for you
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the morning has come
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the morning has come
Lord my heart burns only for you
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the miracle comes
You are all, you are all I want
And my soul waits only for you
And I will sing till the miracle comes
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
Even when the morning comes
I'll praise you
Even when the fight is won
I'll praise you
Even when my time on earth is done
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
I'll praise you
Even when the fight is won
I'll praise you
Even when my time on earth is done
Louder then I'll sing your praise
I will only sing your praise
Tuesday, 29 September 2015
August 26, 2015
I remember what it felt like laughing (FOR REAL) again, after 9 months of stoic deadness.
I remember shedding a tear too, even if I still couldn't even cry.
I remember smiling in my heart, and not with a mask, finally.
And that feeling and surreal experience of my 2nd Deliverance, last April of this year...
As well as the whole tumultuous and God-ordained experience at MMRC in Batangas, with CCF Makati, and the #TL4PursuingPassion Retreat.
Words could never be enough to describe what this 20-month journey and more (since 2012 especially) has brought me into.
Darkness? Hopelessness; abandonment from those you've loved the most; losing yourself yet still walking in this world.
And that's aside from loathing everything you'd become from a life you had grown up around: The people, places, events, memories, hard work, sweat, and yes, blood, in working with and for a community you were born into.
With everything from that, and around 95% of its entirety, and the first 18 years of my life, being thrown away to be forgotten; down the drain like nothing but loathed sedimentary and sewage waste.
I hated who I was and could not reconcile the trouble and lostness the whole turn of events had brought me and my family into.
It wasn't about unforgiveness anymore, because my sister and I had learned to do it, last 2012.
It wasn't about disappointments, which many people so thought it was.
It wasn't about the 2nd guy friend I only ever liked, either (eugh wat) ((:
Whom, obviously, a close girl friend of mine liked as well.
I just step away from people, and things, and allow them to move along, and make myself let go of what won't hold me in return; just move forward, plainly spoken.
But it was something else, something real that had brought me into all of this...
I remember shedding a tear too, even if I still couldn't even cry.
I remember smiling in my heart, and not with a mask, finally.
And that feeling and surreal experience of my 2nd Deliverance, last April of this year...
As well as the whole tumultuous and God-ordained experience at MMRC in Batangas, with CCF Makati, and the #TL4PursuingPassion Retreat.
Words could never be enough to describe what this 20-month journey and more (since 2012 especially) has brought me into.
Darkness? Hopelessness; abandonment from those you've loved the most; losing yourself yet still walking in this world.
And that's aside from loathing everything you'd become from a life you had grown up around: The people, places, events, memories, hard work, sweat, and yes, blood, in working with and for a community you were born into.
With everything from that, and around 95% of its entirety, and the first 18 years of my life, being thrown away to be forgotten; down the drain like nothing but loathed sedimentary and sewage waste.
I hated who I was and could not reconcile the trouble and lostness the whole turn of events had brought me and my family into.
It wasn't about unforgiveness anymore, because my sister and I had learned to do it, last 2012.
It wasn't about disappointments, which many people so thought it was.
It wasn't about the 2nd guy friend I only ever liked, either (eugh wat) ((:
Whom, obviously, a close girl friend of mine liked as well.
I just step away from people, and things, and allow them to move along, and make myself let go of what won't hold me in return; just move forward, plainly spoken.
But it was something else, something real that had brought me into all of this...
Thursday, 17 September 2015
Tuesday, 15 September 2015
Tuesday, 18 August 2015
I WILL RESIST
bacon temptation....................................................................................
For Narnia, and for Aslan.
For Narnia, and for Aslan.
Sunday, 9 August 2015
Kitty :3
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rizal_Park
:D :)
Photo from:
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/0/06/Kitten_in_Rizal_Park%2C_Manila.jpg/800px-Kitten_in_Rizal_Park%2C_Manila.jpg
:D :)
Photo from:
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/0/06/Kitten_in_Rizal_Park%2C_Manila.jpg/800px-Kitten_in_Rizal_Park%2C_Manila.jpg
Wednesday, 5 August 2015
Friday, 31 July 2015
Give Up na ako.
I remember writing back then how there's no such thing as a family anymore; a church; purity of friendships; humanity...
And I would like to reitrate. With boldness.
That it still stands true today.
And I would like to reitrate. With boldness.
That it still stands true today.
Thursday, 30 July 2015
Socializing be like...
I have a darn feeling River is that brown little bby kitten, and Joyce is the mommah cat.
I don't think I'm a cat.
Meanwhile, check out this video of a dog:
https://www.facebook.com/StudentEdgeAU/videos/816000048439461/?__mref=message_bubble
you as a dog
:))))
Ian says I am that. :bd
Tuesday, 28 July 2015
Thursday, 23 July 2015
Monday, 20 July 2015
I want to feel and be seen as human too, for once.
The weather today wanted to match my state.
And in another moment of being by myself to cry alone, again, my playlist was on "Still".
So, yes...
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will
Be still
Know You
Are God
And in another moment of being by myself to cry alone, again, my playlist was on "Still".
So, yes...
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will
Be still
Know You
Are God
Sunday, 19 July 2015
Where Is Love? Why Did She Go?
Why did we have to find each other, just to be as if we've never met, and never will?
Bcs the world is EVIL.
And people are conceived in sin (EVIL).
Psalm 51:5 (NIV)
Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
So I learned to loathe people, and hate my brothers and sisters; wilfully rebel against authority and the Supremacy of the GOD.
YHWH. Chose to love us with a love so deep;
And tragic,
And relentless,
In the person and saving POWER of Jesus Christ.
Who rose from the dead, and we too, when we accept the HOPE to which He so GRACIOUSLY calls us to come.
He is waiting.
Love is waiting.
Our GOD is a GOD of LOVE.
And Wrath,
And Peace,
And Reconciliation,
And RIGHTEOUSNESS.
He is HERE, WITH US, NOW and ALWAYS.
What then, are we waiting on the world for?
Wait, on Him. Our Rock, our PRIZE, our Redeemer, our Friend,
Our HOPE.
Bcs the world is EVIL.
And people are conceived in sin (EVIL).
Psalm 51:5 (NIV)
Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
So I learned to loathe people, and hate my brothers and sisters; wilfully rebel against authority and the Supremacy of the GOD.
YHWH. Chose to love us with a love so deep;
And tragic,
And relentless,
In the person and saving POWER of Jesus Christ.
Who rose from the dead, and we too, when we accept the HOPE to which He so GRACIOUSLY calls us to come.
He is waiting.
Love is waiting.
Our GOD is a GOD of LOVE.
And Wrath,
And Peace,
And Reconciliation,
And RIGHTEOUSNESS.
He is HERE, WITH US, NOW and ALWAYS.
What then, are we waiting on the world for?
Wait, on Him. Our Rock, our PRIZE, our Redeemer, our Friend,
Our HOPE.
Monday, 6 July 2015
Friday, 3 July 2015
This WORLD is TEMPORARY, other words: TAKE HEART!
These horrible MOMENTS... :(((( Are for golden-future-moment-by-moment MOMENTS. :((((
He Has OVERCOME The WORLD.
Monday, 29 June 2015
Remember: We are but Dust & Ashes
Romans 5 (NASB)
9 Much more then, having now been justified [e]by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved [f]by His life. 11 And not only this, [g]but we also exult in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation.
Ephesians 2 (NIVUK)
As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient.3 All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath.
Psalm 33:6 (NLT)
The LORD merely spoke, and the heavens were created. He breathed the word, and all the stars were born.
LORD, have Your way in me...
God loves us, yes, more than we can imagine.
But He is still Who He Is.
He Is.
Wrath. Justice. Peace. Comfort. Patience. Goodness.
Love.
9 Much more then, having now been justified [e]by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him. 10 For if while we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved [f]by His life. 11 And not only this, [g]but we also exult in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation.
Ephesians 2 (NIVUK)
As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient.3 All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath.
Psalm 33:6 (NLT)
The LORD merely spoke, and the heavens were created. He breathed the word, and all the stars were born.
LORD, have Your way in me...
God loves us, yes, more than we can imagine.
But He is still Who He Is.
He Is.
Wrath. Justice. Peace. Comfort. Patience. Goodness.
Love.
Thursday, 25 June 2015
“Leaders, keep the faces, the souls, and the eternities of your followers before you as you face temptation.”
When calling leaders, consider carefully if this man’s teaching and life declare and demonstrate the power, beauty, and purity of God — not perfectly, but tangibly and consistently.
“for those who guide this people have been leading them astray, and those who are guided by them are swallowed up” (Isaiah 9:16). When Israel wandered, they were being led by the decisions and declarations of leaders, men who sacrificed the good of the people for their own personal benefit (Isaiah 10:2). They were more concerned about their reputation, their success, and their profit than they were for the safety, faith, and holiness of the men and women God had put under their care. And so the flock was “swallowed up,” swept up into the resistance and rebellion, into the pain and destruction of God’s hatred against sin.
The influence of these leaders was so corrupt, so pervasive, that God removed his mercy and compassion even from the most fragile and vulnerable. God abandoned even the wives without husbands and the children without fathers.
That should take our breath away. God had said, “You shall not mistreat any widow or fatherless child” (Exodus 22:22). David had cried to God, “To you the helpless commits himself; you have been the helper of the fatherless” (Psalm 10:14). He is the “father of the fatherless and protector of widows” (Psalm 68:5). Yet Isaiah writes that this God, in the wake of corrupt leadership, “has no compassion on their fatherless and widows” (Isaiah 9:17). That is the consequence of sin in a community, especially when a leader falls, dragging his trusting followers down with him.
You cannot quarantine yourself in your iniquity while you’re pouring yourself into others through sermons or counsel or influence. It’s like trying to filter the coffee back out of the water after it’s been brewed.
“Keep a close watch on yourself and on the teaching. Persist in this, for by so doing you will save both yourself and your hearers” (1 Timothy 4:16).
And finally, a word to followers: Treasure faithfulness, holiness, and purity in leadership. Pray for your pastor’s purity. Commend a leader’s character when you see it. Don’t take it for granted. Cultivate it among aspiring leaders — future pastors, elders, fathers, and mothers. Celebrate every kind of grace God gives — the grace that saves wretched, helpless sinners and the grace that slowly but surely makes them pure and whole again.
The qualifications for church leadership (1 Timothy 3:1–7; Titus 1:5–9) are not a scorecard for comparing pastors — not a way for filling out the back of a spiritual baseball card. The qualifications are the character-focused fences built by God to protect his precious sons and daughters. Qualifications do not nullify the gospel of grace. They commend grace wherever it grows, and they guard grace at work throughout the church.
The collapse of a leader’s ministry does not signal the collapse of Christ’s church. No, not even hell can prevail against her (Matthew 16:18). Heaven is not thrown into crisis with a scandal, however shocking or hard the fall. It is a sad and sober moment, though, for us to assess ourselves — our resolute dependence on God for the grace to live worthy of God (Philippians 2:12–13) — and to pray for the protection of his children in churches everywhere.
taken from http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/when-leaders-fall-all-are-punished
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